Dear Diary of Martin X 06/08/2016

better drugs than drugs

I love having a fever 

I like the burning sensation 

It's like a purifying process 

I like the sensation 

I don't, because physically I couldn't move at all,

and physically I couldn't get up from my bed,

and when I get up I get swoon, that's not comfortable)

Yeah

That's the part I like about it 

My body all in bruise after one day))

that's not cool feelings

and not cool feeling of infirmity)

It's like you overdose

Yeah

Maybe that's why I like it 

Hmmm

Yes I understand, why it could be liked,

but it's near this feeling but it's not, deceptively

Maybe that's the only time I get high nowadays 

What does it mean

I like being trapped in my burning body 

Yeah but fever is not ideal way to feel it)

Yeah, it's true

There's better drugs than fever 

There is better drugs than drugs

Poetry is a better drug than drugs.